::M∙o∙M∙o:: [memories of merl online]

Year of the Dragon (and monsters).

2012-01-23T01:15:00.001+08:00

Nothing. Just have to do this.

W-M-D (Episode 1).

2011-12-08T03:28:00.001+08:00

Wohoo. Oklahoma City, you are save.

Patience is not my best friend.

2011-11-22T16:45:00.001+08:00

“Patience is not my best friend” – well said and seem like I’ve been neglecting my blog for quite some time already.

Patience is the cure for all suffering. But I’m suffering. I’m not talking about my previous blog entry (http://www.mellsilver.com/2011/09/on-road-again.html), I’m talking about the feeling and giddiness of, well, waiting for some things. Like a kid waiting for Christmas. (And pretty much that what I’ve been waiting for – early Xmas presents).

For the sad part, this is a buy-yourself-christmas-present, but on the other hand, I’ll get what I wanted for. So no disappointment. Problem is, I ordered my ‘stuff’ form overseas (maybe for the thrill of ‘surprise element’ of receiving parcels) and now, like I said, I’m feeling like a kid waiting to receive Christmas presents. I keep on clicking on the tracking result, checking order details, look at the date, look at item description, check email, shopping some more, added things on my cart, budgeting, removes items, check tracking result.. and so on. Last time when I ordered things online, I don’t really bothered to check the tracking system. Eventually things will arrive at my home (or post office). This time, to take fully advantage of the tracking system, I found out it was hell test-of-patience. With the details of time and date, and location, I goes like “oh it arrives there…WTH? DELAY? yippie it is here…oh come on why so many procedures?” Note to self: Shopping on our local mall is not a bad idea after all. You also get what you want, on the spot. Heck, even shopping online from local store is faster and better. One of my items arrived without I even notices. It was there inside my mail box for a few days.

And look at this: ..been for one week and no update. Feel like turning into Godzilla and razes Oklahoma City.

Google is 13? Really?

2011-09-27T06:06:00.001+08:00

Today’s Google Doodle says it’s Google’s 13th birthday. I googled, then I wikied. Can’t find any info on this specific date link to it’s claim for birthday. Anyway, Happy Birthday. You’ve ruined everything (and I liked that).

I trust everything you said, Google. Blame it to the internet.

Like the 80’s.

2011-09-23T23:03:00.001+08:00

I’ve been having this idea for so long and today I saw my friend’s iPhone cover that trigger the idea to ~~art~~ doodle.

There. For the 80’s and the 90’s.

Edit:

(And here are the original idea):

So which is better?

Book 2: Silver and Oath

2011-09-09T23:50:00.001+08:00

Book 2 is about an ongoing project..

…

Ok, I lied. That not even a book. It just a ~~cover~~ profile picture of me on Facebook. But it can be considered a book if you like and read it; warning tho- like my blog, it is totally a time waster so go ahead.

(Book 1: Missing, Presumed Dead is somewhere out there in the digital/analog world).

It is not that I’m going to go full blast on FB, I’d closed my account before, joined the fb hater forums, fb ethical hacking and mostly because I simply feel better when I did. Probably the account will be closed again. For me, I think it as a portal to another realm, where when I go inside, meet with people I know, talk with people I don’t know, sometimes found out that the persons I know in the real world was fake and the real him/her is in there, in the fb. So I’ll just play along in this realm, until I reach the exit portal. Then start over again (hint: coming soon – Book 3: The Settlers).

But if you think I have negative perspective for FB, it is not. If you can read my wall, if you can hear me talk in there, then you are the most cherished friends and a treasure worth sharing. For those who haven’t found me, and I haven’t found yet – there, me at http://facebook.com/mellsilver.

(Shameless self promotion).

It is done.

2011-09-06T23:09:00.001+08:00

Because I am weak.

Rich “Midtone” Masarap

2011-09-05T19:10:00.001+08:00

This is Rich “Midtone” Masarap. Or simply Miton (Mitton, Mitonn… as long the sound is right). He is a mixed breed of.. er.. I dunno… a female dog and a male dog?

Anyway, he is now about 1 year plus. Almost died when he about 1-2 months old because of tick attack. Really, really bad that I gave up all hope and was ready to send him to the vet to sleep. But he survived. Stronger than ever. I wonder maybe si girl kasi makan dia ~~viagra~~ vitamin kali.

The name was a combination of jokes. Rich as in “kaya” and Masarap (delicious). So Rich Masarap sound like “very full of taste”. ^_^

Then my father named him Miton (actually local language “au mit ton” or “o-mit ton” meaning someone who can’t stay quiet for a long time – please correct me ‘cos I‘m not good in Kadazan). Miton is very active, and will hump almost everything if he able. Will attack bucket, dipper but loves when given a bath.

Here you go.

On the road again.

2011-09-01T06:12:00.001+08:00

Patience is the cure for all suffering. Don’t get me wrong. This time I’m not going to wait. I’ve pick myself from where I was left, and moving on. Fast. And far. Because time will only move forward. Tempus neminem manet.

Raya+Merdeka.

2011-08-31T01:41:00.001+08:00

I was just about to login to our office helpdesk system when the small Google logo caught my attention. So I opened Google main page. Here it is:

How nice it is? Malaysia’s double celebration - Independence Day and Eid ul-Fitr (Hari Raya AidilFitri)- made it to Google Logo.

TSM4 says: Go! Gooooogle!

Back to me.

2011-08-29T19:25:00.001+08:00

I was browsing at my Facebook “Photos and Videos of you”, looking at the old photos of me (yea, I activated my FB account again), and I was thinking, “OH MY GOD I’M THAT FAT?!”

I’m still ‘fat’ at this moment but I’m losing weight. I’m trying to trim down the fat around my waist. I might be not doing the right diet but I’m too depressed to eat properly. I used to be happy. Painful but happy. All that left now was painful. I deserved happiness. Everyone is. That’s maybe the reasons why she left.

Acerrima proximorum odia.

Letting go.

2011-08-28T20:57:00.002+08:00

Been part of me for years, now I have to let go. All the memories…

I mean, my finger nails.

One of my finger nail broke, so I cut them all as I have promised myself to cut it all if even one of them is broken.

Well, I guess I wont get that ‘attraction’ anymore when going out taking photo.

Most memorable was during the trip to Cambodia, where kids surrounded me and the local pulls my hand so they can see if it is real or not.

There you go. Now gotta find that nailcutter.

New Year 2011

2010-12-31T08:03:00.001+08:00

There goes 365 days. Today is 2010’s last day, thank-goodness-its-friday and were given public holiday as well. But more importantly, this is goodbye to year 2010 (thank you for all the memories) and thank you God for everything.

(Eh, this is not a suicidal note…ehehe). So, keep alive people, stay healthy and safe.
(Umh.. I’m suppose to wish this tomorrow but I’ll be gone for holiday, so, there).

Christmas, Christmas!

2010-12-23T19:12:00.001+08:00

…and God Bless all!

[THIM] - 009: The zero of me.

2010-11-02T22:57:00.001+08:00

I would like to thank you all, my blog readers. Sorry for my long absent. And thank you again, for the support, all of you.

First | previous | next

I missed all the empty talk, the gathering and the awesomeness.

I miss you, analogue TV signal.

2010-09-10T11:25:00.001+08:00

Did anyone miss this?

Here I made myself a 1280 x 800 (widescreen) notebook wallpaper.

Song of Magpie

2010-09-09T18:50:00.001+08:00

Visiting the Portrait Train

2010-09-06T15:43:00.001+08:00

As a member of Team PixeLayer yang paling pemalas, I did manage to come to the Portrait Train (I don’t know if this is the correct link because I didn’t have Facebook account). Meet some new friends (sorry I didn’t get to know you all better) and some cool old friends.

I actually told Girl that I couldn’t come because I have something else to do, but since the photoshoot was at Taman Tun Fuad, Bukit Padang, I took my time to do a little visit with my sister.

Here are some of the photos of the models of that day. My skill really-really are berkarat sudah.

Thanks to all the supporting and sporting lovely models (sorry, I didn’t get to know you girls better), I still laughing when teringat si April kena urat satu jogger. Urang KL kunun, datang sini buka business. Owner satu supermarket G-Mart. G-Mart bah! LOL! Everywhere you go you’ll see G-Mart. I do hope they watch Bikini Bandits and know why I laughed when I saw G-Mart.

P/s: Oh the last pic is my nephew. Baby Shepp, Moo-Moo of the day.

Master of disguise.

2010-07-09T02:06:00.002+08:00

Suddenly, everything make sense.

[Created 9th July, posted on the 12th July 2010]

His next plan.

2010-07-02T15:12:00.001+08:00

While having his breakfast alone, he took up the pencil and doodled up his next course of action.

‘tambirang si mell’ no more.

2010-06-15T02:57:00.002+08:00

because

2010-06-07T15:33:00.001+08:00

Shutting down

2010-06-02T14:41:00.000+08:00

Shutting down

Same book, new chapter.

2010-05-28T10:38:00.001+08:00

She still the same girl i knew in 2009. Oh wait… I met her just last year? I feel like we know each other since the British colonial era. We’ll steal coal and pick apples in the backyard. Yeah, we’ll do that.

A preview of a good thing to come:

Congratulation in advance, Kuaichan. 1st June is your day. We’ll be there.

Music Review (CG)

2010-05-05T11:29:00.003+08:00

Internet connection ~~is a bitch~~ has been quite slow nowadays. I’m not sure if the problem with Southeast Asia-Middle East-Western Europe 4 (SMW4) submarine cable network has been resolved or not, but, i n t e r n e t i s s l o w!

Anyway, I stumble upon these underground alternative group from India (Crystal Glass) and their song + video clip Plasticine really get my attention. I tried to google to find more info about them but only managed to get their mySpace page (yes, myspace is still alive).

Crystal Glass - Plasticine

If you able to watch/listen to the video clip, you’ll find it very familiar with our own local alternative band in Malaysia. Sadly, those glorious days are long gone.

Enjoy the song and/or the video clip.

**Edit: Seem like I cannot embed the video here. So just click the link above to watch it.

Escapade: Celyn Kundasang

2010-05-01T07:29:00.001+08:00

19th March 2010, I said “Bah, marilah” to an invitation and we went to Kundasang. Stayed there for one night at Celyn Kundasang Resort. Here just some photos I took there. I’m not gonna review the resort. I just go there because I needed the vacation.

Trying to capture the rays from the streetlight through the leaves in the cold foggy night.

Taken around 5:50am. A long exposure about 554 second. Didn’t mean to do a long exposure actually but suddenly my stomach feel uncomfortable so I have to leave my camera there to do ‘business’ in the rest room.

Spider web, dews and sunrise.

There are so many moths on each and every wall. I do enjoying taking each individual moth photo if only I have the time.

A good hot beverages in the cold morning.

Love the local breakfast! Fried sweet potato and breads.

And here actually the reason why we went there. To attend the wedding of our photographer friend Eiss. But this will be covered in another post.

Have a great weekend and Come, what May.

Just Monkey (pt. 11): Unboxing the box.

2010-04-28T21:39:00.001+08:00

I read and watched havuk’s review about BlackBerry 6, and I can say that I’m also not fan of BlackBerry phone. Touchscreen is the new hit. From handphone to notebook, monitor, (maybe next-gen TV), camera (dslr also oh, don’t play-play), PDA and of course tablet pc.

Anyway, I’ll ~~brag~~ blog about my own b’day present la. Bought it myself during April’s Fool.

“What color is your life?” Excuse me, did you mean what colour is my handphone?

At first, I didn’t really like Samsung’s Corby Family phone. I know its touchscreen. Not really fan of touchscreen either, but when I saw Corby Pro with slide keyboard, I do my research.

QWERTY keyboard and 3.2Mp camera. Hm.. with the keyboard, easier to text someone, but of course you have to use both hands (means no sms-driving. actually even with normal phone pun jangan la bersms time driving).

Another reasons I choose this phone is, it have wi-fi and 3G+. Too bad this is not Windows Mobile phone.

After using this for almost a month, I could say that, overall is ok. But you get bored easily with the themes, limited widget and (at the moment) lack of accessories. But for a phone with touchscreen, slide keyboard, 3G and wi-fi connection which are BELOW RM1K, this is a good phone to try.

(pt.10)

Music Review (MS) II and nothing else.

2010-04-27T12:17:00.001+08:00

There's a smog moon coming I can always feel it
The cartoon trees cannot conceal it
When it's high up in the sky, it almost looks like it is white
When it's high up in the sky, it almost looks like it
is white.

(Another lone tree taken recently during our outing mandi sungai babagon).

I’m still listening to Matthew Sweet songs and beside Someone to Pull the Trigger, Smog Moon (from the album 100% Fun) is one of my fav. I found the lyrics to be a bit dark. But that probably because Matthew Sweet used to be bitter too.

And nothing else.

Textured Layer

2010-04-24T19:30:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, in pursuit to capture a perfect moment, we forgotten to check the camera setting. So we’ll end up with blurred images, overexposed (too bright) or underexposed (too dark). Well, don’t let the digital images goes to waste. With imaging software and ‘most-importantly’ creativity, any images can be turn into an art.

Here is an example of converting an underexposed image to well-ok-la image with texture layer.

This is the original underexposed photo.

This is my base background image after adjusting the Shadow & Highlight, Hue & Saturation and whichever you like. Underexposed photos tend to give ugly noise, clipped pixels and dull colours.Firstly, I’ll try to make my model look nice by soften their skin. (If you have a nice action file, skip this step). Using Wand tool, I clicked on the area where I wanted it to be soft.Then I copy and paste (it’ll paste into a new layer). I add a gaussian blur effect on the new layer. Radius usually not more than 50 pixels. Using eraser tool, erase the area where you want it to be sharp.To avoid the gaussian blurred area from looking too obvious, change the opacity secukup rasa. Download texture (just google ‘texture for photoshop’) and open it. Copy the texture and paste it into new layer above your image. Adjust the opacity secukup rasa. Add a vector mask to the texture layer. (Can also refer to my previous entry). Using brush tool(1), make sure the foreground is black(2) and set the brush’s opacity to not 100%. Continuously brush the area where you want it to be clear from the texture layer (same technique as mention in my previous post). The painted mask will look like image above.

If you satisfied with the result, you can stop there then.

Underexposed photos always work fine when converted to Black & White. IMHO.

I’m not good at teaching.

.

2010-04-14T20:07:00.001+08:00

PixeLayer’s Event

2010-04-12T23:04:00.004+08:00

Ok, I would like to re-post (as seen on Girllyen and Pixelayer’s blog) our next event (actually our first event, so please support us):

This will be the first official Pixelayer outing with friends to promote friendship and to help each other. Please share this excited day out with Pixelayer and Friends.

We would like to invite all of you no matter DSLR user or compact user, videographers or painters, and good news to modelling enthusiast who want to improve their poses. Feel the excitement and register with us before 12th of April 2010 (extended to 15th April 2010) for us to arrange with the meals & beverages. Since there is a limitation on the participation, we need your co-operation to bank in your RM20 to us before or on the dateline to book yourself in this event. There will be a group competition and mysterious gift to be won! Kindly refer below details for your reference.

When: 18 April, 2010. (Sunday)
Where: Tuaran, Sabah, East Malaysia.
Time: 0830 - 1830 hrs.
Fees: RM20 only

Agenda: Open photography, from macro to portrait, street to urban, vivid to black and white.
Transportation: Not provided

Tentative Program:
08:25 am: Participants Arrival (Meeting point: Dewan Masyarakat, Tuaran)
08:30 am: Registration & Light refreshment provided
08:40 am: Safety briefing & welcoming speech from Pixelayer Team
08:45 am: Grouping & ice breaking session
09:00 am: Photo hunting begin after photo group taken (each group will be given different location, map will be provided in case you are not familiar with Tuaran area)
11:00 am: Lunch (Meeting point: Medan Selera, Tuaran)
12:30 am: Back to Dewan Masyarakat, Tuaran
01:00 pm: Heading to Padang Lumba Kuda, Kg. Tambalang, Tuaran (Convoy)
01:30 pm: Photo hunting begin after group photo
03:00 pm: Meeting at Car Park
03:30 pm: Heading to Transit D’Dalit for Tea Break.
04:30 pm: Heading to Rasa Ria Resort, Tuaran.
05:30 pm: Sunset Hunting & Group Photo
06:30 pm: Prizes for best group & until we meet again.

Thank you for all the support upon us and Pixelayer couldn't have made it without you. If you are interested, please send your details as below to pixelayer@yahoo.com or you may drop us a message if you are not clear about the event. Don’t worry all your details will be safe with us. We hate spammers too!

Copy & send us your details as per below at pixelayer@yahoo.com and we will advise you the account number in order for you to bank in RM20 and book your name in.

Name:
Address/From:
Contact no:
I am a: Photographer/videographer/model/artists/lomographer/etc
Camera brand:
Other concern: In case you want to leave early from the event or other opinion on the event

*Thank you for those who already booked their participation and looking forward for this Sunday event. Extra information that you should know, there will be one special guest who fly all the way from Kuala Lumpur particularly for this event with loads of years experience to share in Film & Photography that you should not missed and the most excited part is after this day out activity, all the participants will be given a chance to win 'A Day with Pixelayer & Friends' T-shirt! How to win this competition? Easy as ABC.

a) Participate in "A Day with Pixelayer & Friends"
b) Only participants can pick their best photos on "A Day with Pixelayer & Friends" and publish it according to category given at "Pixelayer Photography & Media Group" for voting.
c) At the end of 15 days, the highest 'Likes' and comment will get a T-shirt of "A Day with Pixelayer & Friends" courtesy of Pixelayer Photography & Media team.

Ok, the easy part done. All I need now is a good night sleep.

The Missing Marching March: Lost World

2010-04-11T19:05:00.003+08:00

Achtung: This post will hangs your browser (due to the PHOTOS). So open a new window browser instead of browser’s tab.

I have the opportunity to set my foot on Sabah’s Lost World, so I took it.

12th – 15th March, 4d3n trip to Maliau Basin, Tawau, Sabah.

There is not so much to tell, and I didn’t plan to do photo walking. I joined the trip because I needed the vacation. And I’m glad I did because this is one on my ‘Walk of Life’, I hope the rest of the group feel the same too.

"Here is my right to brag".

The basin's outer rim can be seen from here.

Maliau Observation Tower.

View from above - our transport.

1st night at Agathis' Camp - army style.

Camp Agathis' kitchen.

Some still unpacking, some just sit and chatting. But all were hungry.

Local fried fish! The best.

After dinner we went to night drive looking for nocturnal animal. Not so many but there was foxes, deers and maybe more but I was asleep on that hard bumpy ride. The most dangerous animal encountered there (maybe for the whole trip) was a giant cricket that the rangers said will bites.

Morning breakfast. Might look boring, but being outdoor and in the forest, everything is delicious.

Not so much flora and fauna found here. The best place for pitcher plants/animal is at the Camel Trophy Camp.

Empty chrysalis. Time to change. Henshin!

For my Mushroom Kingdom collection.

Borneon Bristlehead - only in Maliau Basin.

OK? Ok sign? No, they were talking about turtle's egg.

She the one that makes this trip happen.

Large size ants.

At Ginseng Camp. Stayed the 2nd and 3rd night there.

Showing off ~~WWF's Panda t-shirt~~ cooking skills with dapur kayu api.

Gambar Hiasan. One for my Lone Series collection.

The famous Maliau Basin's creature. Your friendly neighborhood Leech. Surprisingly, I've only seen 2 or 3 of these creature. Maybe because of the dry season.

Even the river is dried.

Ok, finally we reached the falls. Before that, look at this aerial photo taken from Google. The area in red is our destination. It was a big massive waterfall. The number 6th of 7 tiers waterfall..

..but look at what waiting for us there. An almost dried up waterfalls. The rangers said this is the first time in about 10 years the river/waterfalls dried up like this. So either we were lucky or not, its depends.

Look small and pitiful BUT, it was beautiful nevertheless. Proud to be there.

Since we were here, just enjoy the moment there.

An almost 90 degrees panoramic photo. Stitched in Photoshop. (Click for the massive-sized photo or visit my flickr page).

An ND filter will be a good idea here. Sadly, I haven't have one.

Photo taken at the minimum 18mm focal length.

We are among the few who are lucky to be able to go as close as BEHIND the waterfall. Warning: this is not recommended.

1 second exposure.

Photo taken at the maximum 250mm focal length. Lens: Sony 18-250mm/3.5-6.3 walk-around lens.

It was hard to do a long exposure without able to shout "Hey, hold still, will ya?".

Panoramic view from the other side. Stitched. (Click for the massive-sized photo or visit my flickr page).

We are behind the waterfall. I've only dreams and seen this act in the movie but never thought I'll be able to do the same. There is really a hiding place/shelter behind a waterfall. O_0

Satrie, our talented driver. (Note to self: next time must bring pretty models to shoot waterfall scene).

This is the last of the 7 tiers waterfall. But people usually go to the 6th tiers.

Where the river go from here, I don't know. A journey always start and ends somewhere. If everything is predictable, life will be uninteresting.

A free fall to the afterworld. I took only a few photos here before feeling dizzy.

Ginseng Camp's beds arrangement.

Shameless self promotion. ^_^

We went to the canopy walk, or sky bridge... not sure what they call the place. It was about 300 meters long canopy walk (like at Poring or Sandakan RDC).

At about this time, my camera’s battery went dry. So I’ll stop my story here. There was more, almost everyone bring camera and dslr. And I know they were busy commenting each other’s photos at facebook, which I don’t care anyway. So, after about a month, I posted the photos here (and flickr). Happy reading.

Handing over.

2010-02-24T22:12:00.001+08:00

All I could say that we are having a change of working environment.

My friend said my blog is emo.

Too much work, too much thinking get me awarded with flu.

I found peace by going to church.

Suicidal thought seized me, but it doesn’t matter. Life goes on.

That’s life.

The PixeLayerians

2010-02-15T21:34:00.001+08:00

While for me photography is just a hobby of mine, a chance to meet people and travels around…

…cut story short, here are the members of PixeLayer:

Photo courtesy of amuzoking.

There. Good to know.

Fourteen Oranges Tales (pt. 1)

2010-02-14T17:34:00.003+08:00

The 1st Orange

A few weeks ago I made a friend with Sir Cirrus of Orange.

But I ate it.

…

Somewhere deep in the forest, an Orange Monk is undergoing a strict training to avenge Sir Cirrus’ death.

Enter the Shaolin Mandarin!

…to be continue.

Note: My blog list is gone. That’s only mean one thing: NEW DOMAIN NAME! (begaya oh me *dooh*). (Ok, list recovered, if some still missing, just comment here).

P/s: Happy double celebration (again), Chinese New Year of the Iron Tiger and the I-didn’t-celebrate Valentine’s Day.

This post is part of February o' fun.

Shangri-la moon.

2010-02-04T14:23:00.001+08:00

The moon, the mountain and the sea.

me: sky-monkey, mountain-monkey, sea-monkey.

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2010-02-02T19:26:00.001+08:00

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Math = fun.

2010-02-01T16:25:00.002+08:00

Ok, I also cannot answer that.

(Play along with tsm’s February o’ Fun)

[THIM] – 008: Mini 01 (KUDA)

2010-01-31T22:19:00.002+08:00

First | previous | next

Hugs are okay, but…

2010-01-29T16:57:00.002+08:00

Edit:

If I say this print also available in t-shirt, will you buy it?

[Hostile Mode]

2010-01-27T22:49:00.001+08:00

They said the strongest force in the world is love.

NOT!

Its GRAVITY. Go drink bromine, emo kids.

I’m a sea-monkey, born in an island. Are you trying to say that the sea don’t want me back?

Rush of feelings.

2010-01-23T23:02:00.001+08:00

me: got a rush of feelings 2day

me: wanna put it in drawing

@nn: doesnt sound like u

…

…

me: if i tell you, u gonna bisiiiing till my ears bleeding

…

Here,

…and the Schrodinger's Cat gonna blinds you with colours and bad choice of words.

[Panda’s Revenge]

2010-01-21T20:48:00.001+08:00

Might happen one day.

Street cats (pt. 1)

2010-01-18T21:09:00.001+08:00

‘Street cats’ will be one of my ongoing project starting this year. (Of course I’ll be still doing Neko Shelter and my flickr’s Mushroom Kingdom series).

Street cats will be a collection of cat’s photos, especially street/stray/tabby cats (or in other words – cats that are not my own). I started taking picture of stray cats since last year with another cat lover, Miss Luminescent, but for this project, I’ll start from a new one.

Here a set from my recent outing (16th-18th Jan 2010). This is a point-and-shoot photography, final editing done with CS2. I hope I can do better next time.

*Tiles Camouflage. According to the shop owner, they have about 40 cats coming to their house.

*The hotel’s cat. Everyone couldn’t resist to pets this cat.

The view from my recent outing. Location: Sabah.

Note: I started this project because I feel guilty and sad for the cat that I accidentally run-over last week at my housing area. And, tiger (Chinese Year 2010) also from the family of cat.

Time flies..

2010-01-15T18:34:00.002+08:00

Vita non est vivere sed valere vita est. Live it well, enjoy it with no regret.

Digital Wallpaper @tsm 2010

2010-01-08T11:15:00.002+08:00

This is what I wanted to post yesterday, but nevermind, photos are better than hand-drawn graphics. Anyway, I give you three wallpapers.

This one actually I wanted to say “Stop, talk to the hand”, but her smile so nice that I decided to give it a happy message. (Macam baju si muzo).

On the creek, on the river.

2010-01-08T00:16:00.001+08:00

Actually was planning to post the latest collection of my ‘Badly Drawn Digital Wallpaper’, but I decided to post the pics from our last Christmas family gathering.

A quick edit and here are the result:

Standing watch.

Clearwater.

Our little creek – the kids pool.

Water baby.

Magical Frog Prince.

Hadoken!

Sonic Boom!

“Uncle” she said, “nah model-model” and she posed.

Another one for the Mushroom Kingdom.

Face Off - the dragon and the fly.

On the tip of the grass.

Mothra!

Ok, the last 4 photos was taken during kami pii kasi tebas2 tu kebun. Hand blistered, but worth it. (Tangan yg tia biasa pigang parang).

No longer with your world.

2010-01-06T12:45:00.001+08:00

Fake blur.

2010-01-04T21:26:00.002+08:00

4th January. Most school start today. So, let’s study! (I’m not good in this, but I want to share. So don’t worry, sia nda rutan kalau kamu tertidur).

There will be time when you took picture and the photo look nice, but the background will be a little bit distracting. If you have time, you might re-adjust your camera aperture setting so the background will look blur and only the object look sharp. (See Aperture Science). But, sometimes we forgot, or don’t have enough time. Editing will save the photo.

Here the example how to create fake blur for your photo. Using Photoshop. (Picture taken during Hobbycon 2009, the models are cosplaying anime characters. Can you guess who are the characters?)

Lens DT 18-70mm F3.5-5.6, Manual exposure, 1/8 sec at f/5.6, 70mm. ISO 200, 12/12/2009 5:16PM.

This is the original photo. Aperture at F5.6. Background blur is ok, but still distracting. So first thing is to create a background layer copy of the photo in Photoshop (might want to refer the technique from Colouring the Black post).

After applying touch-up on the photo (change the saturation, curve, soften the skin, etc), create another layer copy of the Background copy. Here I renamed it Gaussian Blur because I’ll apply gaussian blur on it. Filter > Blur > Gaussian Blur… (you can also use Lens Blur, Motion Blur… any blur. Here I’ll use gaussian).

Click ok and the effect will be applied. See photo below. The problem is, all the photo is blurred. This is where ‘mask’ comes into play.

Here I’ll compress all the step in one photo:

Click on the little button ‘Add layer mask’ and it will create ‘layer mask’ right beside the photo icon (2).
Click on the layer mask.
Click Brush Tool.
Set foreground to black, background to white
Brush properties – I usually choose soft brush, normal and opacity at 90%.
Use the brush to paint where you want the photo to be sharp (as original). If you deciede to make it blur again, set the foreground to white, background to white (4) and paint where you want it to be blur.

Here are the result. If you look carefully, you can see a bit ‘glow’ between the objects and the background. So next time you see a my photo, try to look if it were faked. (Mostly are.. haha).

Compare this photo with the original, there is not much change right? Here where it getting interesting. Click on the photo icon on the layer mask (see photo below), then from there you can apply other effect.

Other effects can be applied (limited only by imagination) such as:

Radial Blur

Radial Zoom and Light Source effect

and my fave: Soft glowing sepia TSM style. ^_^v

P/s: There is an article about Hobbycon in New Sabah Times today. Have you read your local paper?

2010 and what we need.

2009-12-30T21:52:00.003+08:00

Here is my greeting:

…and what we all need for the coming year.

…because 2010 is the worst year yet. Some will lost hope, many will experience loss. Flu is no longer a sickness. A dreamer is still a dreamer.

***

For those who still sceptical about my photos, this two photos below is the original unedited and taken by me. I try not to use ‘internet photo’ anymore. Meaning, I’ll be only blogging about what happening around me and photos/pictures (not forgetting the hand-drawn cartoon) that taken by/or with me in it.

But then again, read the title of my blog.

Wishing you a happy holiday.

P/s: If you wanted to put words on your photo, please do not use too many font type. Aparently, the 'Peace Needed' failed because too much distraction on the font type.

The Greetings

2009-12-25T14:44:00.001+08:00

There.

[THIM] - 007: Mountain Adventure (pt.2 & 3).

2009-12-10T21:11:00.005+08:00

Hm.. lama nda update. Its been a busy months. Plus, I got sick. Just a fever and cough but I took MC. I never take an MC eventho’ I worked in medical organisation. So now I have my record in the hospital system. So now the nurses can check out my details in the hospital system. So now they are thinking of calling my number to ask me out… (punya la perasaan! TAMBIRANG si mell yang paling BASAR!). Well, even if I’m unwell, I’m still in my good mood.

So, here the comics for you. Not one, but two! Yay! (click for better quality).

First | previous | next

Note: Mountain Adventure ends here. Apparently, trying to make a continuous series is hard. I’d prefer spontaneous and teda-teda punya jalan cerita. So, let it be.

…and thanks to Miss Lumis, Mr. Vick and Mr. Greg for the fun time during that day.

Sue-eet Lullaby

2009-11-24T12:24:00.001+08:00

November 22nd, 2009. Lagoon, Karambunai.

PixeLayerian Actions. Si gol, edel and zabas (semua bukan nama sebenar).

Sue.

Sue and Sue.

The Walk.

Sue and Sue juga.

From right to left: Sue.

Why all “Sue”? Well, that what she said. I arrived late during the shooting, so I didn’t get the proper introduction. But, Sue Cute is totally adorable.

P/s: All these photos will not be included in their photo album (ini yang sa kasi list out suda). All these are purely for my blog (and maybe FB) reader’s eyes only.

Glass Diorama

2009-11-14T13:22:00.001+08:00

I believe most of you have been to a seminar or a talk where the only way to stay awake during boring talk is playing with your handphone or your digital compact camera. Luckily for me, the organizer usually provides us with paper and pencil, glass and drinking water. I like to draw little stick man and put him inside the glass.

(Note: I did this before but I don’t have my camera with me. All the pictures below are the re-enactment (kunun) of my previous drawing – with added drama).

So, I drew a stick man, and a few objects around him (t.v, toilet, coffin… anything). I usually bring my own mechanical pencil with me.

Then, I put the glass. There he is trapped. LOL!

Simple. So here is the added drama especially for you all, tsm(4)’s readers.

LOL! Sa kejam!

Oh, wait.. what is this?

Hmm, seems like our prisoner will be safe after all.

That’s all folks. Thank you for watching.

Big claps for today’s casts:

p/s: Ya, I have too much time. Sad. T_T

13th

2009-11-13T02:25:00.002+08:00

13th

[Lemonade’s problem]

2009-11-11T11:51:00.001+08:00

They said nothing is for free.

I think of a situation:

Zeal: If I buy this magic underwear, will I get something free?

Shopkeeper: Sure. Here I give you this ‘nothing’ for free.

Zeal: But, but… there is nothing there. :(

Shopkeeper: Exactly!

Zeal: T_T

Moral of the story: If you want nothing for free, it is done.

Shutter Speed Science (pt.1)

2009-11-09T21:35:00.006+08:00

Whenever I saw moving water, I’ll try to capture it. Rain, river, flood, tap water, ocean waves… even your drinks.

Today in Shutter Speed Science class, I’ll share a few tips on slow shutter speed’s effect on moving water.

Basically, if the lighting is good (not too bright, e.g in the morning/afternoon), just switch the dial to S and experimenting with the speed. The longer the time (1 second or more), the blurry the water will be. The blurry water(or macam kapas - kampung2 bilang) is our main focus today. (But never forget, foreground, background, subject and composition is what makes the pictures worth looking – in my case, my photos failed –_-‘).

Lens: DT 55-200mm F4-5.6, Shutter Speed Priority (S), 4 sec at f/32, 55mm. ISO 200, 19/7/09 1:54pm

Lens: DT 55-200mm F4-5.6, Manual exposure (M), 1.3 sec at f/32, 60mm. ISO 200, 23/8/09 5:44pm

Lens: DT 18-70mm F3.5-5.6, Shutter Speed Priority (S), 1 sec at f/29, 30mm. ISO 200, 24/5/09 6:38am

Here some tip for the photo above. During the 1 second shutter opened to take picture, I fired my external flash to the water in front of me, thus giving the ‘colourful’ look of the rocks underneath rather than just bleak grey water.

Lens: DT 18-70mm F3.5-5.6, Shutter Speed Priority (S), 2 sec at f/10, 35mm. ISO 200, 3/11/09 8:08am

Slow shutter will give the effect of softness, moving and.. just plain fun. But in next class (tahun daaaapan laa…), fast speed will also be fun. We’ll be stop time on it’s track, stillness and frozen. But I haven’t finish with slow speed yet. Until next time. Here some gambar hiasan:

Three photos stitched together. Lens: DT 18-70mm F3.5-5.6, Apature Priority (A), f/22, 18mm. ISO 100, -1.7 EV. 15/9/09 1:++pm (Click for BIG image)

p/s (above): I can’t do slow shutter because the light is too strong. Filter is a must. (also, I walked about 3km barefooted to this waterfall, my sandal betrays me).

[pt.2]

Go to [Aperture Science] class.

Glowing Dragon

2009-11-02T22:17:00.004+08:00

I went to Kinabalu Pine Resort this morning. Will be back to KK tomorrow. I came and I saw:

I emailed to all my dearest friends, I said I’m gonna miss them, and said something about ‘glowing dragon’. (Yes, Celcom Broadband is really good at Kundasang. I finished download “My Worst Week – SE01”).

Then at around 6pm, raining. Here comes the dragon.

Car’s tail-lights . Lens: DT 18-70mm F3.5-5.6, Manual exposure, 29 sec at f/11, 35mm. ISO 200, BULB + cable shutter release. 2/11/09 6:17pm

At 7pm, came The Moon:

Lens: DT 55-200mm F4-5.6, Manual exposure, 1250 sec at f/9, 200mm. ISO 100, B&W. 2/11/09 7:04pm

With Mr. Moon’s help, the dragon look more interesting:

Lens: DT 18-70mm F3.5-5.6, Manual exposure, 45 sec at f/9, 26mm. ISO 200, BULB + cable shutter release. 2/11/09 7:18pm

… and this is what I’ve been trying to capture for so long.

Lens: DT 18-70mm F3.5-5.6, Manual exposure, 86 sec at f/9, 55mm. ISO 200, BULB + cable shutter release. 2/11/09 7:42pm

I missed you guys here. There are five of us, now there are five of me.

p/s: post revised and edited. now you can click on the photo to view 1000x666 or 666x1000 resulation photo.

Reaching point

2009-10-30T11:03:00.002+08:00

Photo taken during the recent UMS Convocation (10th - 13th Oct, 2009)

Winning Stand.

p/s: I’m using Windows Live Writer. Ok I might be way behind this technology, but since I just upgraded to Windows 7, I think I should learn to use all the features in Windows.

Highlander

2009-10-26T21:12:00.004+08:00

I'm doing math.

Weekend + friends = fun.
(Pixelayer Team x crazy) + (Mr. Greg + son) + Vicky = memorable.
Went to Kundasang -> Ranau -> Mesilau -> Kota Belud and still met with familiar shutterbugs face: (Lumis, Bosing, Sarah, The Smiling Eyes, Gidong, Bobby) = priceless.

I failed with math.

Here some photos.

Muka-muka urang yang kesejukan di Mesilau.

Another photo for my "Mushroom Kingdom" album.

My "boring" group photo. Visit their blog (or facebook) for more 'exciting' group photo.

[THIM] - 006: Mountain Adventure (pt.1).

2009-10-23T19:35:00.008+08:00

First | previous | next

I'm too excited to draw some, well,.. drawing. I'm going to 23rd Mount Kinabalu International Climbathon tomorrow (24th) until this Sunday. So, stay tune for some crazy Mountain Adventure (but I can't promise you that, blame it to my blog's title).

[THIM] - 005: Rain angel.

2009-10-20T22:52:00.004+08:00

First | previous | next

p/s: angelic lady is not Petra. She's someone else.

Playing with colours is hard. Will not do a coloured comic again.
Playing with colours is hard. Will not do a coloured comic again.
Playing with colours is hard. Will not do a coloured comic again.
Playing with colours is hard. Will not do a coloured comic again.
Playing with colours is hard. Will not do a coloured comic again.
Playing with colours is hard. Will not do a coloured comic again.
Playing with colours is fun! Will do this again if I got time..
Playing with colours is hard. Will not do a coloured comic again.
Playing with colours is hard. Will not do a coloured comic again.

Quad squad

2009-10-18T00:26:00.002+08:00

From left to infinity: mel, mell, merl & tukang sapu.

Mistake is a regret.

2009-10-13T21:24:00.003+08:00

I login to the FB just now. Then I remember why I'd stopped going to that site at the first place. Mistake is a regret. Their's.

I'll start over. Hopefully can reach 1 year without log in. Some will ask why I didn't just delete the account. Well Jenna, we have this small group that can prove that you can live without FB. So don't roll your eyes and said "Oh I can't live without FB". You can.

Now I'm looking at you, Twitter. Stop twitting about me.

[THIM] - 004: (ukk) Did anyone miss me? (ukk!).

2009-10-04T20:58:00.002+08:00

(ukk) Refer here (ukk!).

First | previous | next

Mr. Monkey: Akk! Akk! Akkk!
~~mell: I'll get you next time, Monkey!~~

Mr. Monkey: Akk! Akk! Akkk!

[THIM] - 003: Sweet punishment.

2009-10-02T21:44:00.005+08:00

First | previous | next

To Kuai and Sabas.

[THIM] - 002: Azure King and Hera.

2009-09-30T21:30:00.005+08:00

First | previous | next

To girllyen and amuzo.

[THIM] - 001: This is what I do.

2009-09-29T17:07:00.004+08:00

First | previous | next

[THIM] - 000: The Dreamer

2009-09-28T20:04:00.002+08:00

First | next

The Hero in Me?

2009-09-27T19:58:00.004+08:00

Enjoy (click to read).

I have so much fun doing this. What?! Nobody cares? *pigi berdiri di sana cliff*.

Home of the giants.

2009-09-12T15:45:00.002+08:00

Yes. Nothing interesting. I just put the tree there.

[Let Me Out]

2009-09-09T21:33:00.010+08:00

I took my time to visit myself. Only to find that The Room is empty.

Numb and deafen by the silentness, try to think what to do next...

...I realized...

I need to get out of here.

[OMG Kitties!]

2009-09-06T11:18:00.003+08:00

Oh I'm soooo gonna see "omg ~~titties~~ kitties" t-shirt being mass printed someday.

.no update.

2009-09-04T15:41:00.003+08:00

while still lying on my sickbed
wishing for a sweet swift death
i saw a hobo cat on the corner
with "F00ds plz" sign on the ground
the kids call him FeraRay
and i'm wondering what am i doing on the snow coverd street
when i'm actually still lying on my bed

maybe the medication has taken the wrong turn
but i never taken any medication
'guess the ponies are up to their tricks again
everyone loves pony. colourful ponies.
you baffled me with your awesome unicorn stance
oh come strawberry the first talking winged-horse of narnia
hide me from the screaming router of interdigital mass

and he says "nah, u asked for update".

Just monkey (pt. 10)

2009-08-27T12:10:00.003+08:00

*****************************

..and congratulation to my youngest sister for their first son. Nephew! Yay!

(pt. 9)

Neko Shelter (pt. 5)

2009-08-25T23:49:00.005+08:00

Meet Kennocha Mosi, the 'two-dots' (see part 4). She needs extra care (and foods). Her mother is Kiko 'The One Eye' Kimukle. I really need to revise my budget. No more outing for me. :(

*Like I said, I might as well open a nursery "Mellsilver: Home for stray and gifted cats".

[A Life Needs Secret Plans]

2009-08-24T21:17:00.006+08:00

Maybe all the dramas are part of a secret plan? All the hostility and detachment because of the plan?

... to be continued.

Nothing nice to say

2009-08-20T12:20:00.001+08:00

The Dramas.

2009-08-17T19:31:00.006+08:00

While I'm suppose to blog about something with the title "Three black cats and a sad story", I decided to just 'happy' with "The Dramas". Here it goes:

Life is a drama.
"Ohh".

Thank you.

(and this is also the first time I do blog post with both photo and art, thank you for not asking).

Mencakar Langit (can you feel the anger? sa mo kasi tanggalam mamutik).

I just want to feel the lightweightness again.

* * *
The girl with big assets was trying hard to hook me with Naza. While I'm really interested in Naza Citra and Naza Suria (and the girl's big breastsets), I don't have enough cent in my pocket to afford a new vehicle. Dear Santa, I've forgiven my friends. Does Triton sound fair to you? Thank you.
* * *

Stuck on the moving river.

2009-08-09T15:47:00.004+08:00

Everything move very fast nowadays. The sudden haze and the increasing of outbreak cases left me stunned and confused. Shooting* seem boring (sorry guys), and I can't draw. A 5 years old can do better than this:

I need a long vacation.
And one of my kitten dies. She was running around the house eventho' she born with only 2 normal working legs. I believe special cats will be treated better high above.

*shooting = both in real life (photography) and online (first person shooter).

LRRH

2009-08-05T01:53:00.005+08:00

Little Red Riding Hood is now a grown up lady. While the BBW is a successful president of Bio-IT Corporation.

Lady Red is out there. Searching

Tales of the After-Era series.

I hate to draw a full-body character. Cartoon is better.

The Black Ribbon

2009-08-03T23:25:00.005+08:00

I used to hate dark humour. It'll left me feeling lost and hopeless. But sometimes, it have deeper meaning that only life's experience can interpret. But that, of course, after you have reached certain level in your life, seen death (or maybe near-death experiance), being in love, betrayed, independance, like I said; life's experience.

But I like funny dark-humour.

Ok, my attemp for some dark joke. Its not funny, so I think I got it.

For a diehard webcomic fan, you know where this came from.

*and jfyi, only picture #1, #3 and #4 have ~~deeper~~ meaning.

FEFoFaif - Test Shot (macro)

2009-07-31T19:12:00.003+08:00

Here are some sample taken using my new Olympus FE-45. Overall performance; sedih. The camera can't focus properly. Auto is the only way out. But I still put my hope in it. Maybe it will spread it wings and fly high if shoot outdoor. I do hope so.

Image size and format is at the largest (at 10MP, Fine, 3648 x 2736), no editing (except watermark).

Focal lenght 7.4mm (or 42mm in 35mm equivalent), speed 1/10sec, f3.5, ISO 200. Program AE, no flash. Super Macro.

Focal lenght 7.4mm (or 42mm in 35mm equivalent), speed 1/6sec, f3.5, ISO 100. Program AE, no flash. Super Macro.

Well, can't wait to test shoot outside. So until next time!

Just monkey (pt. 9)

2009-07-30T21:33:00.005+08:00

"Oh lookit them
everyone is a shutter-shutter
i wish i could be one.."

So the monkey do his homework
pages after pages he jump in
gone nikon, came canon, so sony
not to forget the olympus
then panned to panasonic
went kodak moment, sing the samsung
even tango with the sanyo.

then the monkey decided on olympus
to take on the challenge
to do the monkey do.

An FE-45, just basic 10MegaPix
a FeFoFai he called it
smiling, he is aiming underwater sea.

Oh the cakars ayam!

This is my first digital compact camera! Yay! sa sungguh sakai! Now, I'm gonna shoot here there anywhere. Now I can do photoblog. Now I can be a photographer. Now I'm... wait... what was I'm before?

(pt. 8)

[Come fly with me]

2009-07-26T16:37:00.003+08:00

Another "The Hero In Me" series. I'm not a doctor but come, fly with me.

The Witch's Cat and Flying Monkey is watak tetap.

Rama-rama on the Lake

2009-07-24T10:52:00.007+08:00

[Rama-rama on the Lake] - actually what I mean is, A Panoramic View of the Lake. Taken during O2C's Jog for Health campaign/gathering. Location: Likas Sport Centre's Lake. 23rd July, 2009 - afternoon.

180° view of the lake. For larger view, visit http://www.flickr.com/photos/mellsilver/3751315632/

And here is the O2C family in action. Sorry for the unedited version. Edited version will be uploaded to FB and Flickr. (Kalau sa rajin).

Not jogging. Do not believe what you see. Those funny people.

Sumpit and Clay giving 'healing touch' to Bosing.

Ok, overall, this is a healthy way to stay umh... healthy. (If you didn't know that actually after this they all went to Foh Shang for porridge). Wish for more 'healthy' outing again, guys!

*Edit: Edited version already uploaded to FB. Remember, photo quality on FB is very poor.

[Loud Silence]

2009-07-15T01:41:00.003+08:00

The silence is so deafening I can't hear myself thinking.

In The Room the darkness is blinding.

p/s: Downloadable.

Stereoscopic [Experiment #1]

2009-07-11T18:15:00.005+08:00

My first attemp to do a stereoscopic photography. For those who know about stereoscopic, please view the image(s) below and tell me what do you think.

If you haven't heard about it, please check wiki or the stereoscopic page.

Basically, all you need is to stare, stare, stare until you passed out.

Ok, if that didn't help, look at the white dot and the red star under the image, crossed your eyes (kasi juling itu mata) until the dot and star meet with each other. (Kasi juling mata sampai tu titik putih sma tu bintang mirah bercantum).

Using single camera. After taken the the first photo, I moved the camera a few centimeter to the right and took the second photo. The more the distance between 1st and 2nd, the more depth it will have.

After you feel comfortable, look at the 'combined' image and you'll see that it'll have a 3D effect.
(Some might not see it because my eye type it 'straight' while some 'cross'. Check www.stereoscopy.com gallery for some example).

8:47 pm: Another photos just added:

No guiding points. Just apply the same technique.

I think this one is harder. *Sakit kepala*

Neko Shelter (pt. 4)

2009-07-10T12:53:00.005+08:00

Another 2 more family members since last month. Courtesy of Kiko "Bihau" Kimukle. Hehehe. Sadly, one of the kitten have crooked legs. Both hind legs. Kesian.

Two-dots and the crooked Black-head.

Kici-kici lagi suda pandai bergaya. Suda besar mo jadi model ni.

And much before that - 3 more kittens. Born around Earth Hour (somewhere around March). Mother: Dazzle Betsy "To'onong".

Name? Ya they got names, but later la sa bagitau.

Group photo.

Since they were born before I went camping at Mamutik with Kuai & Friends, I might name them Kuai, Zi and Farantey. Kidding.

And also, the older cats. (Kiko Bihau is not available for photography, she jaga anak).

Cat with personality problem.

I don't have time to get my flash, so I just use the pop-up flash.

Active as always.

There, 8 ikur kucings. Matai!

Neko Shelter, Neko Shelter (pt. 2) Neko Shelter (pt.3)

[Distraction]

2009-07-09T10:56:00.004+08:00

Busy with report, editing, overdue wedding photos... but still have time for this:

Later I'll upload the blogger version of this, since YouTube is banned from our network. This will do, for now.

Celebrating Fourth of July.

2009-07-05T12:32:00.005+08:00

Why not?

Since we don't actually celebrate US' Independence Day, so I created my own fireworks.

Digital/electrical fireworks. Star-effect flares courtesy of Kuai.

And some night photography too.

We love our Earth's companion...

...and reflection on the water too.

Watashi wa meru dess. This is what I do.

2009-06-29T18:56:00.005+08:00

Just for update, plus preview of the recent outing/camping trip at Melohom Bay, Pulau Gaya, Kota Kinabalu, Sabah.

Ok, forget about the update. Enjoy the preview.

Lucky Shoot. Two birds flew into frame.

Lucky shot juga. Hand held. Teda masa mo set-up tripod abis ni kumbang terbang sana-sini.

I heart sunrise.

Surreal sky and sea. Long exposure.

Insects. Mating. X mark the spot. <-apa la.

As always, photos is also available at flickrs and facebook for comment and stories.

[silent words]

2009-06-21T18:20:00.003+08:00

Death. That's the beauty of life. I could say this now. Acceptance. But when we lose someone that we love; words and conforts have no meaning. Inner strength and religious belief is only a guidance. The world goes unfair. Regrets.

Right now I'm in the weakest state of mind and strength. But I'm powered by God, friends and family. I have plans, I have wishlists. I could be happy, I could be like this. Today I went out, I took photos, I worked, I paint. This is what I did.

"Gosh, I could be soooo emo, sometimes" - by mellsilver

Happy Father's Day. I pray to God for my father's health. He needed it.

Are we going to?

2009-06-18T09:46:00.005+08:00

Still not feeling well. My mind tells me that I got ammonia poisoning. *happy*
*sot*.
Still struggling to finish up the wedding DVD, but sempat lagi doing side-quest - Melohom: You're gonna miss this slideshow. Please visit http://o2c-family.blogspot.com/ for info.

[unstable]

2009-06-16T20:21:00.003+08:00

Maybe I have to fake a smile to make the world better.
Ok, maybe I just have to fake a smile so that everyone is happy.
But I'm sincere when I smile.
Because I seldom smile.
I'm sorry.

Something is wrong with my body I can feel it.
Body temperature is high, I sweat a lot.
There is a time when I spaced out, numb, trying to think of something to think about.
My mind didn't go blank,
can't explain it...
but, feeling like I'm trying to concentrate on something that is not there.
Maybe I'm infected by the Hyena Flu.

Good thing it is no such thing like Hyena Flu.

Now I'm starting to hallucinating.
I don't do drugs, didn't even believe in medicine from hospital.
Alcohol no longer compatible with my blood system.
...but of course nobody believes me.
I only drinks because I respected my friends.
Maybe I should fake enjoying the drinks so that everyone is happy?
Was they happy or did I just hallucinating again?

Today before I get out from office I've been watching the ceiling outside.
The birds are dominating the area.
One bird catches my eyes.
It was black, it was still.
It been watching.
I have to get it out from my mind before they put me in straitjacket.

Beezzy Bees

2009-06-11T09:18:00.008+08:00

Just a collection of bee-shot. This one is from Outing S-004 series (Kinabalu Park-Mesilau). Since the lighting was too harsh and incorrect white balance, the photos was a bit off the colour.

"Maybe I'll visit you later"

Pollination.

"Destination".

All in a day job.

Photographing bees are fun. In a garden with so many flowers, bees are everywhere. All you need is patience and luck. Sometimes you need to chase them around, but to get a sharp, proper lighting, you need to setup a tripod, point to your target flower, get a few shot to check the lighting, then wait. Autofocus/autotracking sometime can ruin your photo. I usually switch to manual focus to catch the bee in mid-air. But looking at my photos above, I think I needed a good quality fast lens (50mm F1.4 or 50mm F2.8 Macro or 100mm F2.8 Macro, yummy).

Bees is a delicate creature. Let them do their job. Love them for the flowers.

[Wake Up: II]

2009-06-09T09:25:00.003+08:00

Reality and science does not always romantic. That's why we needed fantasy, novel, sci-fi, anime and comedy to spice-up our life.

Maybe my (downloadable) wallpaper below does tell you something, maybe it not. Whatever it is, feel free to make your own interpretation.

I still dunno how to draw real-looking clouds.

Why did you stopped caring?

2009-06-04T03:08:00.003+08:00

Maybe they changed. Maybe they just stopped caring. Maybe it just you she/he stop care.

For the past 2 months, many of my friends has gone thru hardship in their relationship. Very menghairankan. I mean, if I have record of how many break-up news I've heard in my life, April-May is the champion. Some managed to endure the test and improve in their relationship. But sadly, many has lose, heartbroken, lost, and changed.

Please, survive.

I still doing this.

2009-06-03T19:53:00.004+08:00

When I was a kid, I love to draw on a piece of paper, exercise book or even on school text book. But who wouldn't? I wish it could stay that way, but it didn't. Instead, I continue menconteng and even make it a digital wallpaper. Just for the fun of it.

Like the 70's movie about ants become mutated because of radioactive waste.

Like I said; It was fun (and still is)!

Herlina & Syamsul

2009-06-02T22:13:00.005+08:00

I'm doing a wedding photography for my colleague's sister on the 29th & 30th May. While I'm not into wedding photography, I still have 2 more free wedding photography for those who interested. Originally, I have 5 free wedding photoshoot to do before I decide whether I wanted to include wedding in my photography list.

So far, I've done church wedding (Mac/Christni and Mimie/Kenny) and I already decided that wedding photography is not my field. But since my friend said they'll paid me (photography and video at the same time), I have to do this. So, alang-alang, I'll continue the 2 more free wedding photography (T&C applied hahah).

...adidihh macam studio photography pula. Anyway, congratulation again to Herlina and Syamsul.